It's Not Always So

It's all great, just swaddled in clean white blankets

nothing broken can escape here

bound within lies, all of that fear that I've been wanting to get rid of for years

But I haven't

I want everything to go as it should

I want it all to be settled

There's that powerful storm that I've ignored for this

A supposed tidied up spot in my soul

a place where only one can see how much toll is weighing on me

it's where I'm known so well 

It's not even all that dark

but the weight forced into my heart

does not always speak, "It is well."

cause it's not always so well

it's not always so good with my soul, 

feeling like all control is above me 

and I am free to be who I am 

it's not always so simple

it's not always upbeat, light hearted, and delightful

                    nah.

this world comes with its sufferings 

we've been promised that, I know

we've been promised that we'll always go through times where we can't see the glow

of the beauty, of the peace, of the life that surges within us

that life's not always there to ignite all we are

but the light within the life never fully goes away

it waits and sees through all the mysteries, waiting for the day where we won't stand for that 

hopelessness anymore

where we let the light take over and we don't have to say

because there's something much greater that restores what we've allowed to be ruined in a day